Reboot 1999 [Rebirth]

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Three days later, on Jin Yan's birthday, he didn't go anywhere, not even the cafe he was accustomed to.Nest at home early in the morning.

Yan Guangde did not return all night.

In the past half a year, it is common for Yan Guangde to stay out at night after working in the laboratory, but today is different!

A few days ago, the two just made an appointment to discuss marriage, and today is his birthday again.Jin Yan originally thought that Yan Guangde should be at home no matter what.But when I wake up in the morning, the pillow is empty.When I touched it with my hand, the side of the bed was also cold.Apparently last night after he fell asleep, Yan Guangde left as usual.

Jin Yanyong was sitting on the head of the bed, the curtains were drawn, the room was dimly lit, and he didn't know what time it was.He could only hear the sound of motors downstairs, and distant human voices from the street, blurred into lines, intertwined and intertwined in his mind.

He has a headache everywhere.

Jin Yan didn't know how long he sat alone until he felt that he was sitting on the head of the bed and became a dark mushroom.Then he finally heard footsteps outside the bedroom, and then the door opened gently, and Yan Guangde walked in with a tired face.

"Honey, are you awake?"

Jin Yan looked at him without saying a word.

"Get up, I brought you some breakfast!"

Yan Guangde sat on the head of the bed, hugged him, and kissed him as usual.

Good morning kiss and good night kiss are the daily interaction between two people.But today Jin Yan got out of the way.

"What, are you angry?"

Yan Guangde spoke softly, with a pale chuckle on his lips. "Baby, the results of the experiment have come out in the past few days. Maybe you can eat normally without hiding at home."

Although he didn't sleep all night and his eye circles were reddish, Yan Guangde smiled very happily.

Here, at home, he never concealed the color of his pupils.There was a little smile in the silver-gray eyes, which were pretty, like ice flowers suddenly blooming from a piece of cold ice.

Jin Yan looked at him, slightly absent-minded.

Yan Guangde lifted the quilt, picked him up and hugged him in his arms. "Let's go, I'll help you!"

"Need not!"

Jin Yan pushed him away, struggling to land on both feet. "Now you and I are not much different in height."

After a pause, he glanced at him lazily again, the corners of his lips curled up. "I've grown up!"

"It's still ten centimeters away!"

Yan Guangde smiled, planted a kiss on his forehead, then ignored Jin Yan's struggle, picked him up and walked out the door.

Jin Yan is 1.9 meters five, but because of a problem with his body, he only weighs about eight to ninety catties when he is held in his arms.

Yan Guangde suddenly felt sad.

In order to cover up, he leaned over to Jin Yan's ear and laughed loudly on purpose. "Baby, there is a surprise today!"

"What surprise?"

Then Jin Yan raised his head, and saw the small and warm living room, which was filled with roses and candles were lighted on the table.The curtains were still drooping, but today they were replaced with a thin and transparent white gauze.The window was half open, the wind outside lifted the white gauze, and the curtains fluttered slightly.

Yan Guangde smiled brightly. "Honey, do you like it?"

Jin Yan sneered, his lips moved.

Yan Guangde added another sentence intentionally and mysteriously. "There is an even bigger surprise! But you have to find it yourself."

Yan Guangde put down Jin Yan, helped him stand still, and said with a smile, "There is a gift hidden in these roses."

Jin Yan looked at Yan Guangde, his Adam's apple rolled a few times, his breathing became tense suddenly, and he felt a long-lost feeling of suffocation.

He put his hand on Yan Guangde's shoulder, wanted to say something, moved his lips several times, but the words were still out of tune.

Yan Guangde was standing beside him, looking at him with a smile, his eyes full of doting.

Jin Yan turned his head to one side, and said shyly, "Since it's a surprise, it can't be opened in front of people."

"Okay, I'll go outside. Call me when you're done!"

"……it is good!"

Yan Guangde went out lightly.

The two rented a small apartment, which was actually just a living room and a kitchen, and there was no yard at the door.

After Yan Guangde went out, he wandered aimlessly on the side of the street.Because I haven't slept for a long time, even my young body can't bear it.He walked to the door, leaned his back against the wall, and took out a cigarette from his pocket, but tiredness crept up from the corners of his eyes. He leaned his head against the wall, and fell asleep unconsciously.

The cigarette butt burned out and fell to the ground with a slight sizzle.

"Yan, how long are you going to escape?"

The torrential rain was torrential.Jin Yan waved his fist at him, but the background was blurred into a hazy ball of light.Even in a dream, Yan Guangde knew he was dreaming again.

He wanted to retort, baby, I was wrong, and I will never escape from it again!

But the young and vigorous "Yan Guangde" in the dream frowned deeply, sitting naked by the bed and smoking, without saying a word.

"Are you still going to marry that woman named Julie?"

"Yan Guangde" in the dream remained silent.

"What's so good about her?" Jin Yan smiled bitterly. "She is just a woman! If I am also a woman, will the problem between us be solved?"

"Yan Guangde" finally finished smoking a cigarette, stood up, walked to the bedside without saying a word, bent down to pick up the clothes that were thrown on the ground during the passion before.

Jin Yan suddenly hugged him from behind, skin to skin.

Even if he couldn't see it, Yan Guangde knew that Jin Yan's expression at that time was extremely sad.The rapid sniffing on his neck made "Yan Guangde" have a fine layer of goosebumps.

Yan Guangde really wanted to wake up the self in his dream, and turned around to hug this person... However, just like the lonely 49 years in his previous life, he could only watch helplessly as "Yan Guangde" in his dream roughly pushed Jin Yan away, and then Put on your clothes and go straight to the door.

Dark night.

This is him and his previous life.It was the previous life of the troubled road that actually happened.The past is vivid, leaving a mark like a knife.As long as it is touched lightly, blood will spurt.

**

Yan Guangde went back then to get back to Zhu Li.

He and Julie were engaged then.Both Zhu Li and Jin Yan knew about each other's existence, they were jealous of each other, and both hated Yan Guangde at the same time.Yan Guangde was caught in it, like a fool walking in a gunpowder library that could explode at any moment.But then he didn't feel it.

At that time, he only felt pain.

This pain is like a black and endless hell.In his previous life, Jin Yan had arrogantly said to him countless times—"Yan, let's go to hell together!"

Zhu Li cried and shouted at him countless times: "Old Master, when will you be able to seriously face the problems between us?"

"Our problem has never been that man named Jin Yan, but your heart!" Zhu Li poked his chest with her hand, tears streaming down her face. "Old Master, what exactly do you want in your heart?"

Whether it was the invitation to Jin Yan to go to hell together, or facing Zhu Li's tears, Yan Guangde remained silent.

Thin to terrible silence.

"Why don't you spread it out, look clearly, and then tell me yourself? As long as you say, as long as you say... I will give up." Jin Yan looked at him sadly and smiled.The corners of the slender eyes are tucked up, as if there is infinite affection, and the beauty is like a butterfly determined to fight the fire. "Even if you say let me go, you regret it, you regret being with me, as long as you say, Yan! I will leave."

But Yan Guangde at that time could neither reject Jin Yan's fatal attraction to him, nor could he resolutely marry Zhu Li.

In the last three months, from April to July 2001, all three of them lived in endless pain.

**

In July 2001 in the previous life, Yan Guangde finally broke up with Jin Yan officially.

It was a sunny summer day, and the cicadas were shouting hoarsely on the tall trees. Every leaf of the deciduous sycamore trees on both sides of the streets in Jibei City was green to transparent under the sun.Pale pink albizia flowers bloomed tree after tree.He and Jin Yan walked slowly on the street, and after a long silence, they said abruptly, "If I say, you just let go, right?"

Jin Yan stopped hastily and staggered.It took a full half a minute before he turned his face around, the corners of his lips were pursed slightly, and the muscles on his face fluctuated violently, looking at Yan Guangde for a long time, he couldn't say a simple word "good".

Jin Yan's expression at that time was too painful.

Yan Guangde avoided his dark blue eyes unconsciously.He had nowhere to run but turned his head to look at the sky.The sky was as clear as blue, just like Jin Yan's blue eyes.

Just as clear.

just as sad.

"J, between us, this is the end!"

Yan Guangde put one hand in his trouser pocket and turned away from Jin Yan.That day, he was determined to cut off all entanglements with this man, and return to a peaceful life from now on.He is an old master, an honest man.The flames brought by Jin Yan will burn the life he planned into ashes.

So that day, he continued firmly but slowly, "I will go with Julie to meet her parents in October, and then at the end of this year, I will marry her."

This is the result of his discussion with Julie.They even bought the train tickets, and even prepared the gifts for meeting Zhu Li's parents, but this was the first time he said these words to Jin Yan.

Jin Yan remained silent for a long time, breathing rapidly, and finally opened his mouth, breathing heavily.

After what seemed like half a century, and only ten seconds later, Jin Yan's voice finally reached his ears.

Very hollow, like echoing in an empty valley.It was also like traveling through deserted planets, and finally reached his cochlea after untold hardships.

"Yan—!"

This shout trembled, Yan Guangde trembled, and turned around unconsciously.

Oncoming is a fist.

A pale fist, with a simple white gold ring without engravings on the ring finger of his left hand.

Jin Yan bought the ring.In order to coax Yan Guangde to put on another one, Jin Yan tried his best on the bed, but Yan Guangde failed in the end.At that time, Yan Guangde was used to classifying everything into categories.In that unclear entanglement, from beginning to end, only Jin Yan was out of control.

That day, Jin Yan was wearing a promise ring from someone else, and punched Yan Guangde viciously.

Blood trickled down the corner of his mouth.

Then Jin Yan turned and left without saying a word.The first two or three steps were quite normal, but it was a little slower than normal people, and every step seemed to fall sideways.Later, Jin Yan suddenly started to run, he ran very flustered, fell down three or four times in the middle, and then got up on his hands and feet.

Jin Yan's crooked running posture in the sun obviously attracted the attention of passers-by.From time to time, someone would point and poke Jin Yan's spine.

In the end, Jin Yan finally fell heavily.He fell so hard that he couldn't get up for a long time.

Yan Guangde raised his hand to wipe away the blood around his mouth, and then continued to watch Jin Yan's leaving back for a long time.Suddenly, the body trembled unconsciously like a fallen leaf in the wind.

That day, in the overwhelming summer light, the chirping of cicadas was almost mocking.