My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1971 - 1765: The World

I poured all my feelings into you, did you ever know all my sincerity?

"Child, do you know? The most important thing in a marriage is loyalty. Without loyalty, the marriage will soon break down. I once forgot what loyalty was, didn’t understand what it truly meant, and hurt the one who loved me the most. It’s my biggest regret in life. Time and again, I’ve made decisions that hurt those who love me the most. Why can’t I keep those who love me by my side, always pushing them away, forcing them out of my life? My heart aches so much, sometimes I feel numb. I don’t know what kind of life I want. I don’t know who exactly I want to love. I just know I miss him very much, even in these years with your father, I still miss him.

You might think I’m being fickle as a mother, disloyal to my husband. But do you know? He loved me so much, gave up his whole world for me. I am not heartless, I am not unaware, how could I wish for things to turn out this way?

Everything in this world is fair. Whatever you do will return as retribution; the cycle of cause and effect is inevitable. The mistakes you made will come back to haunt you, no matter the magnitude. One after another, they will turn into retribution, spinning above your head, leaving you with no chance to rise again. I have no other regrets in life, only regret those actions that hurt someone who loved me so dearly. I lost the whole world; my world collapsed. Despite a hint of love with your father, he was never the one I loved the most.

Child, remember, no matter what difficulties arise, no matter what temptations appear, never betray the one who loves you most.

Neither love nor marriage can withstand betrayal. Once betrayal emerges, the marriage will face destruction!

During that time, I waited day and night for a message from him. I set all his messages to urgent notifications. Day by day, I waited, looking at my phone day and night, hoping for a message from him, even if it’s a curse, but ultimately, I received nothing. Only then did I realize I truly lost him, lost the whole world!

I begged him repeatedly not to delete me, to leave me any way to stay in touch, but he heartlessly abandoned everything. I felt truly desperate facing this world; I saw nothing. I just knew my mind was completely drained, my heart utterly hollowed, staring into the darkest abyss, that is, the gateway to death!"

Only to Zhang Yichen did his mother confide such heartfelt words, leaving him incredulous. He once thought his parents were deeply loving but never imagined it was all a facade. His mother had an early first love, who supposedly gave her everything. He never thought his mother’s life was so blissful, never imagined her life passed in such a manner.

Perhaps it really is like everyone says, each person’s life can only be felt by themselves. Each segment of life brings different consequences, not knowing what ending awaits, only knowing perhaps life will leave no room for change—everyone lives so arduously, so tired.

"Mom, did you ever feel his pace was too fast, leaving you unable to keep up? Were you always following his steps, thinking only if you sang to his tune could you be together forever? But you never realized, abandoning all your principles and everything you valued, lying repeatedly to your own family just to be with him, and ultimately losing him. It wasn’t until you lost him that you understood he was the most important person to you, always longing to be with him for life, only to find plans can never match fate, never anticipating what pain heaven might bring you. You wanted only steady companionship beside him, but in the end, heaven deprived those chances, leaving you with no recourse in life!

In truth, even you know deep down, even if you followed his pace back then, he might not have been yours. Everything is uncertain unless you’re truly engaged, stepping into the halls of marriage, ensuring this life together. No matter how good your relationship is, eventually you may break up. But you never suspected you’d fall deeper and deeper, until now you’re entirely submerged, hoping just for another glance at him. Seeing him smile brings you joy, seeing him troubled pains you more than anyone.

But ultimately, you still lost him. Losing him was predestined, yet you can never forget him, for he is forever ingrained in your mind. The happiness he brought, the love he gave, all he sacrificed is imprinted in your heart, unless you change it or until the day you enter the grave, only then can you forget. But I guess you wouldn’t want to forget it either?"

"You’re right, I’ll never forget, will forever imprint all the love he gave on my heart. I won’t change my heart. When I am buried, I will still carry him in my heart, because he is the only one I have truly loved in this life. Perhaps my love was too rampant, making everything excessive, but who knows, every path once walked remains etched in my memory, with no way to forget.

I walk each road alone, roads once traveled with him, and everywhere I go, his silhouette fills my mind, unable to erase it. Even every gesture from my heart—who could understand such pain? This pain is unforgettable for life, and I’d rather live in misery than forget him!"

Why does sincerity always get betrayed so easily?