bigabreads Chapter 180 Bai Heng's Nighttime Visit
Chapter 180 Bai Heng's Nighttime Visit
Bai Heng recalled how Lu Li had been so eager to distance himself from him in the room earlier.
He seems... to be very afraid of himself.
Why?
Is it because of the loss of memory that you feel unfamiliar and wary of yourself?
Or is it because of... some other reason?
Bai Heng bit her lip, feeling inexplicably wronged.
She raised her hand and hesitated for a long time before finally knocking gently on the door.
"Knock knock".
"Um... Lu Li?" she called tentatively. "Are you... there?"
The room was silent; there was no response.
Is he asleep?
Or... do you just not want to talk to me?
Bai Heng's heart sank.
She stood at the door, looking somewhat disappointed.
Or... we should go back first.
He might be willing to see me once he's thought things through.
Bai Heng sighed and was about to turn and leave.
"Click".
The door opened from the inside.
Lu Li poked half his head out, a fake smile plastered on his face.
But his eyes darted around, and he dared not meet Bai Heng's gaze.
"Ah, it's Miss Bai Heng," Lu Li said curtly. "What's the matter so late?"
Seeing Lu Li like this, Bai Heng felt even more aggrieved.
He was indeed avoiding me.
"I..." Bai Heng lowered his head, clutching the hem of his clothes, and said softly, "I can't sleep, I want... I want to talk to you."
"Uh...Speak?" Lu Li's smile froze for a moment.
Strictly speaking, we only met today, right?
What can the two of us say?
Are you going to tell me about how you bit me under the covers just now?
And it's already so dark.
Isn't it inappropriate for a lone man and woman to be alone together?
Lu Li instinctively wanted to refuse.
But the moment his eyes met Bai Heng's.
I don't know why.
Those once clear fox eyes were now filled with unease, confusion, and a hint of vulnerability.
Like... a little animal that can't find its way home.
Seeing Bai Heng like this, Lu Li's heart softened instantly.
The words of refusal were on the tip of my tongue, but I just couldn't bring myself to say them.
No... you're looking at me with such pitiful eyes.
How am I supposed to refuse?
A soft, cute, and delicate fox... What should I do if I suddenly feel a little understanding of King Zhou?
Lu Li sighed inwardly, but ultimately opened the door completely.
"Come in."
"But it's agreed, just for a little while."
"Hmm!" Bai Heng's eyes lit up instantly upon hearing this.
She quickly went into the room and looked around curiously.
I was a bit dazed when I woke up earlier and didn't notice anything.
She only realized it now.
Lu Li's room was small, but very tidy.
A bed, a table, and a wardrobe.
The furnishings were as simple and frugal as I remembered them.
really.
Even though she has amnesia, Lu Li is still Lu Li.
Subconscious habits are all the same.
For some reason, my previously uneasy heart suddenly calmed down.
"Do you live here?" Bai Heng asked curiously.
"Hmm." Lu Li closed the door. "After all, I was just a logistics person... even though I've become a frontline pioneer now."
"But I don't like extravagance, and I'm used to living here, so I'm not going to change rooms."
Lu Li walked to the table and sat down, pouring himself and Bai Heng a glass of water.
Bai Heng took the water and walked to the opposite side of Lu Li, intending to sit down, but found that there was only one chair.
She looked at the chair, then at Lu Li sitting on it.
Finally, he chose to sit down by Lu Li's bedside.
The bed was soft and had a faint scent, the same as Lu Li's.
Bai Heng's cheeks felt slightly hot.
Lu Li took a sip of water, cleared his throat, and spoke first: "Speak, what do you want?"
The sooner you finish speaking, the better.
After saying that, they quickly sent this great deity away.
"I……"
Bai Heng looked at Lu Li, but for a moment he didn't know where to begin.
She had many questions to ask.
I want to ask him how he spent those seven hundred years.
I want to ask him why he lost his memory.
I want to ask him if he still remembers the agreement between them.
But what came out of her mouth was, "Are you... alright?"
"Me?" Lu Li was taken aback for a moment, then shrugged. "Fine."
"Eating well, sleeping soundly, and slacking off every day while waiting for the workday to end—that's one of life's greatest pleasures."
Bai Heng looked at his nonchalant and irresponsible demeanor.
That lazy look is exactly the same...
But even though Lu Li hadn't changed at all, he looked at her like a stranger because of his amnesia.
Just like... when Jingliu brought Luli back, and they met for the first time.
Thinking of this, Bai Heng felt another sharp pain in his heart.
Lu Li... must be feeling terrible too, right?
"Lu Li, don't be like this," Bai Heng said softly. "I know you're suffering inside; losing your memory must be incredibly painful."
"But you don't need to force a smile in front of me."
Lu Li: "..."
When did I force a smile?
This is genuine, heartfelt joy from the salted fish, sister!
"I'm really fine," Lu Li tried to explain again. "I haven't lost my memory, I..."
"I know," Bai Heng interrupted him, looking at him with unwavering eyes. "I know everything."
"You just...don't want me to worry, right?"
Lu Li opened his mouth, but ultimately chose to keep it closed.
Oh well, so be it if I have amnesia.
Anyway, it feels pretty much the same as how he used his past life to fool people and get away with it before.
Well, Lu Li gave up struggling.
Seeing that Lu Li had "acquiesced," Bai Heng breathed a sigh of relief.
Because she felt that...
As long as Lu Li still cares about her and doesn't want her to worry.
Then there is still hope.
After all, as long as the feelings haven't changed, memories can be slowly recovered.
However, since Lu Li has truly lost his memory...
This also means...
Bai Heng was somewhat disappointed: "So... you really don't remember me, do you...?"
Looking at Bai Heng's fluffy fox ears drooping down.
Lu Li felt somewhat helpless.
I don't know why.
He reached out as if possessed, imagining himself touching her head as the "self" in the sky.
But he stopped halfway through reaching out his hand.
No, my current persona is that of a person from the future who "doesn't know her".
That's so strange.
He awkwardly withdrew his hand and scratched his head. "Sorry... like you said, I really don't have those memories."
"So... this is our first time meeting."
"...Is that so?" Bai Heng was silent for a moment.
"What about Jingyuan and the others?"
"Jingliu, Danfeng, Jingyuan, and Yingxing... you don't remember them either?"
Upon hearing these names, Lu Li's expression finally changed slightly.
He paused for a moment before speaking, "I don't remember either. My only knowledge of them comes from seeing them on the sky."
This is the truth.
Although he knew more about them than about Bai Heng because of the game in his previous life.
But in reality, the game of the past life and the sky of this life are not much different.
The only difference is that one shows scenes from the future, and the other shows scenes from the past.